exceptance

i have just recently come to except where i am in life.  it has been two years since my husband was hurt on the job and we lost our house.  two years that i have spent whinning, depressed and angry.  two years that, really, i have wasted.  i have been so focused on all the little things that make me crazy i've lost sight of how truly blessed i am.  my kids are healthy and happy, my job provides us with everything we need and most things we want, we have a roof over our heads, my husband is able to stay home with the girls so we don't have to worry about them being raised by strangers, and we have the love of family and friends.  it isn't that i never realized all this before, it's more like a switch was turned on (or off) in my brain that i can now focus more on these things.  i realize now that as much as i want to be a stay at home mommy it is not the right time and for the first time in eight years i am okay with that.